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They went to the beach and everything was warm and beautiful for a while. He's immensely glad Steve has found someone to appreciate him as much as he and Pepper do -- especially since Sam shows it better than he ever could. He's also grateful Steve agreed to stay at the Tower when he wasn't in D.C. It did a great deal to ease his mind now that the S.H.I.E.L.D. drama was over with. Or at least, Phase One was over.

It's late and Pepper's sleeping and he's still a little fucked up from his surgery. They told him not to strain himself, which of course he immediately had anyway. He doesn't wait for Steve to come collect him though, hitting the elevator button obediently instead of trying to mount all those stairs -- why did he have so many stairs anyway?

Tony pushes on the door of the training room, knowing the other man is up, punching bags. He's jealous; he just wants to get back to doing dumb shit with his friends. His expression is uncharacteristically wan, soft; very nearly demure. He clears his throat though he also knows Steve has noticed him.

"You missed my bedtime," he criticizes with zero bite, holding up his watch and pointing to its face while still hanging in the doorway -- as if he's afraid to step any closer. Not of Steve, but of what it may symbolize.

Date: 2015-02-06 09:58 pm (UTC)
valuedstrength: (b: and the words so sweet)
From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
Steve is about as close as happy as a man could get. His friend survived surgery, he's in a good relationship, and has a place to call home complete with a family. He still needs to work out where life is taking him next. Who does he want to be until the world needs Cap again?

The question is coming from a healthier place now. While there will be days where he feels lost or is hurting over what he'll never get back, it's more good than bad now. The person he has to thank for that is of course popping in to remind him of bedtime.

Steve stops hitting the bag, holding it still on the off chance he does accidentally knock it across the room for the hundredth time. Life may be good, but sleep still doesn't come easy to him. The War, what happened on the Hellicarrier, and New York will never really leave him. Sometimes he worries his demons will set off Tony's so just maybe he ought to let him rest on his own. The recovery should knock him flat, right? Apparently not.

"I guess I did." He exhales audibly. It's pretty clear he's been at this for a long while to work up a sweat. "You're policing yourself now?" He smiles in amusement. "Keep this up and you won't need me for anything."

Date: 2015-02-07 12:46 am (UTC)
valuedstrength: (b: you try to move your feet)
From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
Steve studies him a moment to see if he really means that before shaking his head. He moves to unwrap his hands. "I'll always need you, Tony." He continues unwrapping his hands without making eye contact. It isn't long before he plows ahead to the follow up.

"So what are you interested in? Another movie night? Ice cream? Do you want to build a snowman?" He smiles at him. Look he stole another of your lines! He's so funny. ;)

Date: 2015-02-07 01:27 am (UTC)
valuedstrength: (b: this part is for her)
From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
"Whatever I want as long as I smell pretty. I see how it is." Steve points at him accusingly with his free hand before unwrapping the other. He pockets the bandages before heading towards the elevator. He didn't bring any clothes with him to change into which speaks to his original plan.

He intended to wear himself out, head to his room, and crash after a shower there. Tony has a way of making him alter course.

Date: 2015-02-07 01:52 am (UTC)
valuedstrength: (You say I'm like the ice I freeze)
From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
Steve is willing to let things go when it comes to Tony to a point. They are starting to get there by the time he hits the button to his floor. Maybe Tony was a little reluctant to come near before when he couldn't be sure if he would be blown off or not. Steve is here now and willing to play ball so the insecurity isn't linked to him.

The answer is so obvious it practically hits Steve in the face. It's pretty clear Steve is working this out since he keeps sneaking looks at Tony and then peering away thoughtfully.

"That you're having a rough night so you're oddly invested in how I smell?" There are probably nicer ways to give Tony a way to open up, but Steve is kind of a jerk once you reach a certain friendship level so.

Date: 2015-02-07 03:33 am (UTC)
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Steve watches him look at the room and wonders what he's expecting. He's set down roots here. He has no intention of severing them even if at times he entertains the idea of chasing Bucky down out a misplaced sense of guilt at times.

He saw the museum footage. He knows that Bucky knows everything he said was true so his choices are informed by that. He also knows that Fury has his eye on a man with a metal arm basically ripping apart any HYDRA stronghold they do manage to uncover.

So what is Tony looking for if not signs that Steve is going to jump off the deep end and ruin his life all over again? Then he's being waved off and fine he can take a hint. Steve peels off his shirt as he walks towards the bathroom.

"Thanks. I always worry about getting lonely while I shampoo my hair." He tosses it casually into the hamper before pulling back the curtain so he climb inside. Of course his bathroom has an actual tall bathtub to go with its shower head. He yanks back the curtain so can continue yanking off articles of clothing and tossing them into the hamper. Before long the actual shower head gets turned onto just a little below scalding hot water. Hope you like to sweat, Tony. He has a problem and it's called hating the cold.

Date: 2015-02-07 04:19 am (UTC)
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No, he can't. Steve vaguely protests before pushing onto more important matters like getting clean. He's not about to wreck his sketchbook while getting in a naked wrestling match with Tony Stark. He has shame, alright?

He pops his head out to yell at Tony for invading his privacy before he notices he hasn't actually opened it. Steve moves back in to rinse the soap out of his hair. "Yeah." He starts lathering up some soap anxiously away from the spray of water. "You're not going to want to look at all that."

It's not unusual for him to capture images of the past. There is a painting of his first love hanging up in his room. They're mixed in with images of Pepper, Tony, Bruce, Natasha, and Sam in candid moments. One page is Sam clearly counseling someone off screen, another is Pepper lounging on the beach with Tony, then another is Bucky as a child, followed by the bombed out bar in London, what might have been trenches at one point that have been aggressively scribbled over, an incredibly detailed image of Bucky's metal arm, blank pages... and back to his friends. That's about where his head is at right now.

Date: 2015-02-07 05:12 am (UTC)
valuedstrength: (b: come back and haunt me)
From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
"No." It's clearly paining him. His best friend is alive and he can't even talk to him. "The only way to get an idea of where he's even going is to track down HYDRA and even then you're more likely to show up after the fire has been taken care of." Literal fires. It's the same pattern; he slaughters anyone who isn't part of an 'incentives' program and destroys the place.

"The problem is he's going to run out of known HYDRA targets eventually." Which will lead him back to Russia according to Natasha's files if he sticks with his obvious revenge plot and he will. Bucky always sees things through to the end. Even that might be fine if he survives going against old spooks. What happens when everyone he holds accountable is dead? It's that question that haunts Steve because he knows the answer. He lengthens out the shower to avoid having Tony see the look on his face as acknowledges yet again Bucky will probably end this by putting a bullet in his own head.

Date: 2015-02-07 09:16 pm (UTC)
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Steve looks in his direction even if all he can see is a curtain. It means a lot to hear him say that. Some days he honestly wonders why Tony keeps him around here aside from worrying he'll do something vaguely suicidal otherwise. The rest knocks him off his feet. They talked about being in this together, but he never expected it to come to frustration because it is painful for Tony. He has to put aside his feelings, his loss, in order to help save Bucky. That is a lot to ask, too much in fact, but Tony isn't asking permission. He's already talking like he's part of it. He understands where Steve is coming from which is incredibly overwhelming for him.

Steve cries under the hot spray as quietly as he can. The small hick up and the roughness of his voice as he responds betrays him. "Yeah. You're right." He rubs his face and sighs. "You should probably get out of here. I need to get dressed. You're probably ruining my sketchbook." He lets out a broken sounding laugh. He supposes it's his fault for turning every shower into a sauna. At least he remembered to leave some pajamas in here so he doesn't have to try to avoid crying while holding onto a towel and look for something to wear. He really should buy a bathrobe one of these days.

Date: 2015-02-07 10:53 pm (UTC)
valuedstrength: (b: where to begin?)
From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
He's out a few minutes later in a pair of soft pajama pants and cotton t-shirt. His eyes and face are red, but otherwise he seems fine, only a little tired. Steve wastes no time crossing over to the bed in order to join Tony on the edge when he'd really just like to collapse on it. It's been a day.

"I am going to color it. It's one of my favorites." Tony will know what he means.

Date: 2015-02-08 03:09 am (UTC)
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"I hope so. It's going to be a fun to get just the right shade for her hair." He smiles warmly; as if he won't love every second of it. One of his favorite things since his color blindness subsided is trying to capture all those colors on the canvas whenever possible.

It's short lived before he sobers up. He looks at Tony next to him, bright eyed and sincere. "Thank you for what you said in there. It means a lot that you've got my back on this. I know this is really hard for you. I don't want you to think I'm taking you for granted."

He shakes his head at the thought. "I'm not. I'm so grateful for everything you've done for me." He ducks his head and can't bring himself to say anymore. Steve doesn't why he's so emotional all the sudden. Is it all finally catching up to him?

Date: 2015-02-08 04:16 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
"That's it." Steve murmurs as he numbly follows directions. He feels like a little kid all over again. The comfort of being safe under warm covers is immediate. He only hesitates a moment before allowing himself to be drawn in. Steve realizes more than ever just how tired he is. Somehow he feels like a kid and a million years old at once.

"Probably for you." He smiles weakly. "I could use boring not that I'll ever get it around you."

Date: 2015-02-08 05:57 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
Steve nestles in, trying to figure out the appropriate distant between them since Tony still is tender from surgery. He doesn't need a giant knocking into his healing chest by mistake. He stops fussing when Tony's hand settles on the back of his neck. He frowns indignantly at the question before the real ones come. While they're badly put he does get it. No one ever assumes that much of Tony Stark. He's the nut job, screw up, mess, insert your comment here of this and really every group.

Except Steve doesn't really see it that way. He sees someone flawed and hurting. That someone is helping him right now when he feels like he's going to fall apart. "I get it. You don't get to be the stable-ish one that often." He undoubtedly is right now. "I don't like being this way." He's bleeding where everyone can see him. It doesn't feel right.

Date: 2015-02-08 06:32 am (UTC)
valuedstrength: (b: where to begin?)
From: [personal profile] valuedstrength
Steve raises his eyebrows in agreement at being called rude. He really is. There's no denying it. The rest he doesn't know how to deal with. He agrees that report was hideously wrong especially when you factor in who else was meant to be on the team. He can't agree with the rest.

Steve starts awkwardly, "Not to dismiss your value, but I really think you're overselling me here. I'm not the pillar of anything or really-" Worth getting back. What can he do? What is he really worth when it's all said and done? Steve only feels valuable when he's giving away pieces of himself in order to save the day.

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